scrapes, bruises, and that hole in my tooth

i'm so tired from work. currently i lead a stock team made up of one, and that is me. yesterday, tues., so much stuff came in that i was hardly able to put it all away by myself. i cut myself, scraped myself and my body aches from heaving all that heavy shit.

at some point, i'll need to go to the dentist. the cavity in my left molar (is that the one that's all the way in the back of your mouth?) has quickly progressed into a gaping nerve exposing hole because i eat too much sugar and never go to the dentist. so i must go. i now have medicaid and am no longer afraid. this morning i tried my mothers suggestion for quick pain relief:

1. boil a cup of water
2. dissolve two alleve in the water
3. drink when cooled a bit, but still hot

i thought to myself that the pill would be disgusting to drink by itself and i would never get through it, so i tried adding a blackberry tea bag. it didn't work, it just made this disgusting, cloudy concoction. the pills wouldn't fully dissolve and so bits and pieces of them floated around in the cup.

monday's parade wasn't the best its been, but i suppose it was better than doing absolutely nothing. i just came home straight afterward. i vow (as i do every year) that next year:

1. i'm dressing up in a kick ass costume
2. either having a party or going out and getting tanked

i'm young, i deserve to have fun.

nov. 1st (yesterday) was the day i was supposed to pay for this get together of gb.net members. i don't get paid till tomorrow, so i guess i won't be going to that. oh well, another failed attempt to make friends with joanie and the other long island ladies. nothing, however, hurts worse then having to give up going to scotland. i read all the updates anyway and feel burned.

i am a sad individual.